Where's the spark gone?

where's my spark gone?

Well, I've been into hospital, felt terrible for ages and feel that I just might be creeping round the corner to recovery. The fact I've finally found the energy to post is amazing me in itself. I'm beginning to get back a bit of that Coll-drive and feel I want to be achieving more than I am right now.

Work is ok - far too much of it to do in the time I get, end up working til crazy o'clock at home - and it's only going to intensify when I'm full time in a few weeks. That's one reason, I think why I feel more compelled to have something else to focus on in my life.

Kids are being really difficult at the minute - I waver between feeling like a helicopter-over-anxious parent, to one who needs to be there more for her child. They need to build resilience and stand up for themselves, but they're also so fragile and still very little. They're young for such short time, I want them to look back on a happy childhood where I was there for them - but also need them to be strong women to cope with the future.

Been doing heaps of reading lately, some trash, some parenting advice….and feel quite reflective. That's good.

Had a great idea for a website that I feel could be a real hit and there seems to be nothing out there like it at the moment. It's certainly set a fluttering of  momentum deep inside… who knows. It's something that could catch on big time and have many contributions from many places. I like that idea!