Inspiration...

I love our house! Sitting here in our backyard, listening to the lorikeets squawking and whistling away, their colourful bodies darting around or peeping out from the greenery, the sun shining on the treetops, casting delicious shadows upon the ground...it's idyllic! I'm so lucky!

Really, who wouldn't want to be sitting here right now? It IS inspirational. I just want to sit back, soak it all in and never forget the moment.

I've been very conscious of the passing of time recently. Very aware of my own mortality and the changes that are taking place within me, both physically and mentally. I'm beginning to see how the body can fail you, before the mind is ready. Every time I see an old person with a  stick or slowly making their way across a busy road, it gives me pause for deeper thought...they were once young, managing a family and work, rushing, busy, painfree...and I will one day be like them. I guess the irony of life is that no matter how much you read about ageing and the passing of time, no matter how many times someone tells you to treasure what you have, (your youth,  the excitement of new love, beautiful young children with their innocence and lives before them) you cannot truly appreciate it until the moment has passed and you allow your self time to reflect upon it. Well, that's what I'm doing now! And boy, I have  been so lucky!
And will hopefully continue to be - there's lots of life left to be lived to the full yet - and I guess I'm starting to want to live it to the full and appreciate it more, as my time moves on.

Where's the spark gone?

where's my spark gone?

Well, I've been into hospital, felt terrible for ages and feel that I just might be creeping round the corner to recovery. The fact I've finally found the energy to post is amazing me in itself. I'm beginning to get back a bit of that Coll-drive and feel I want to be achieving more than I am right now.

Work is ok - far too much of it to do in the time I get, end up working til crazy o'clock at home - and it's only going to intensify when I'm full time in a few weeks. That's one reason, I think why I feel more compelled to have something else to focus on in my life.

Kids are being really difficult at the minute - I waver between feeling like a helicopter-over-anxious parent, to one who needs to be there more for her child. They need to build resilience and stand up for themselves, but they're also so fragile and still very little. They're young for such short time, I want them to look back on a happy childhood where I was there for them - but also need them to be strong women to cope with the future.

Been doing heaps of reading lately, some trash, some parenting advice….and feel quite reflective. That's good.

Had a great idea for a website that I feel could be a real hit and there seems to be nothing out there like it at the moment. It's certainly set a fluttering of  momentum deep inside… who knows. It's something that could catch on big time and have many contributions from many places. I like that idea!